“She’s not like that now. She knows better. She knows now that people lie , and promises can be broken as quick as they are made. She understands that she might never be loved , and too quickly good things fly in front of your eyes before you can reach out and grab them. She knows that you can’t change or help time, so every now and then it will just run out. There isn’t a place for everyone in the world, so if you’re standing alone for awhile, that’s why. Not everything in life comes easy, but when you work the hardest, that’s when it’s the best. You can’t always expect people to care, and even when your best friends stab you in the front, don’t think for one minute that they didn’t already aim for your back. They missed for a reason. She has found out to soon, that in the end, you are your own best friend. Everyone will be broken at some point in their life and more often than not, its gonna hurt like hell. But you can’t stop it. You can’t change your fate. Some things are meant to be and all the pain you go through will end up resulting in something huge. You don’t know what it is and when it happens, it will hit you like a ton of bricks. At some point, when you have experienced everything you can, the words ‘Life’ and ‘Risk’ won’t mean anything to you anymore. But don’t try and change that. Stuff like that is meant to happen. Over time, certain things no longer have an affect on you. And that happens because that’s the way it supposed to be. But you’ll learn all that later in life when little things like a sunrise or a spring rain start to matter. But it might catch you off guard and happen sooner.”—(via thelovewhisperer)
I had a dream last night about this band. They change the singer. So, i search the net what does it mean. I can’t really find the meaning of my exact dream but if you dream of a band or celebrities it means you want to escape from your life and wanna find something exciting to your life. This past few weeks, I miss my old self. i’m fangirling about bands, guitar and shit doesn’t care on what i look. I really wanna experience gigs. I wanna have an official band. hopefully by next year. :)
i was depress like 2 months ago, without a cause. It’s called hypophrenia.. I have a loving family, i got friends, i dont have money issue, i have all i need. And for me, the feeling was. What is my purpose in life? that’s it? Why am i living? All my college friends find it weird. But yeah, i felt lonely and i don’t know why.
Just last week, i told this to one of my closest friend in Kuwait. And surprisingly, she felt the same way too. And i was so happy that i wasn’t alone. I told her my story that when i was depressed i wanna go to the guidance. and she said she taught of that too like group sharing. And we both think of a movie that was related to us too. The title of the movie is ” it’s kind of a funny story ” The movie is about a boy getting depressed and wanted to kill himself. this movie is really nice and fun to watch :) its a happy ending by the way.